Got a Rifle? (Living Alone)

It’s not living alone if you keep a rifle under the bed.
- Chuck Palahniuk

This was on my Google quotes today. It made me laugh. Makes me want a rifle.

Is living alone lonely? I’ve never really thought so; recently it seems more so to me. Then again, that is yet another area that God has been changing my heart in. He continually shows me that I need to live in community, shows me the importance of it, of how He designed things.

On a completely different note, Psalm 73 has been stuck with me, or I with it since uhh.. June 2006. Thereabouts anyway, and God just keeps bringing me back to it, over and over, and I’m pretty sure that I’m missing something horribly obvious in it. The verses that stick out to me in it mainly are these:

21When my soul was embittered,
when I was pricked in heart,
22I was brutish and ignorant;
I was like a beast toward You.
23Nevertheless, I am continually with You;
You hold my right hand.
24You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward You will receive me to glory.
25Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides You.
26My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

So that’s where I’m stuck. He’s continually with me, whom have in heaven but Him? And is there anything on earth that I desire besides Him?

Maybe that’s where the rub comes: what do I put before Him in my life?

That’s a frightening question, and one that I need to answer. To find a quiet place to be, and talk with Him, away from all the other busy things that so easily ensnare. Maybe I’m behaving like a beast towards Him. That is truly a dreadful thought.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:1-2

I went to a women’s training day at church. It was really good, and is making me think a lot, pondering over things said, running them over and over my mind. I also managed not to talk to pretty much anyone the entire day, it was fantastic. Watching hundreds of women interact, listening to conversations (I am a horrible eavesdropper), having God kick me upside the head, being reminded of how amazing Jesus is. it blows me away how wonderful He is, and I wish that I had the vocabulary to express it.

I’ve missed reading C.S. Lewis of late, I come into and out of possession of his books right and left, and they have an odd comfort to me. So I’ll settle for random quotes instead.

“And then she understood the devilish cunning of the enemies’ plan. By mixing a little truth with it they had made their lie far stronger.” The Last Battle

“Until you have given up your self to Him you will not have a real self…” Mere Christianity